jinx

car jinx.
yes, i am.
it is so crappy that i feel so down.

things are not going well.
probably, i'm too stressed out.
can't sleep well at night.
dread going to work.
falling sick so easily.
coming into the 3rd month and i ought to adapt well by now.
i know i'm a fast learner but why am i feeling so incompetent?
this is not right.
why am i feeling this way?
perhaps i should go back into food industry.
maybe venturing into a new industry is not a safe & wise bet of mine.

my head hurts so much that i feel like smashing it.