my big day

i don't mean it as my wedding day.
of course, i wish that day will arrive one day.
a year older now... i hope it also means alot wiser.
earlier, the day didn't go quite well.
i seriously think the sentence 'how have u been?' is not lucky.
whenever i replied 'good', 'great' or 'wonderful', something unpleasant is bound to happen.
fancy squabbling with my best friend.
i was upset that why he didn't offer his help.
expectations? no.. not exactly.
i want my closest friends to show concern on their own accord.
i didn't want them to shower concern after i told them of my disappointments.
shouldn't it be purely out of good gesture & will?
it hurts more when the blow comes from someone very close to me.
everyone of us have good friends.
out of these good friends, there is 1 or 2 whom you will count on & turn to most.
when they didn't do what you would think they could, you'll start pondering.
questions will start appearing in your little head.
are new friends more important?
friendships that is almost a decade is nothing special?
those special moments that we have shared is incomparable?

what do you exactly hope & wish your best friends will do for you?
it is very simple for me.
a sweet sms to perk up the day.
a lunch / dinner date.
a pack of my fav snacks.
a comforting hug.
an ensuring smile.
a 'get well soon' msg when i'm sick.
being there for me when i'm the weakest.
these are not very demanding right?
it doesn't take a lot of effort to show love & care towards your closest friends.
most important of all, these little actions must come from within your genuine heart.

my 1st bday gift =)
a pretty set of jewellery.
very sweet <3


a slice of pretty cake for myself =)

i hope for things to take on a better path for me.
the last quarter of the year had been very tough on me.
many changes took place & they almost suffocated me.
these made me realise i'm not that strong as i thought i am.
i wish i will be more independent, firm, healthy, cheerful, confident to take on new challenges.
i must always believe in '明天会有新的剧情 会有人更爱我 会有不再委屈的命运'

a bear hug to my dear friend, andy <3
see this uberly cute sheep!

muacks to andy!
i love you, girl!