hate it when

you are expecting me to be relaxed when things are screwed up.
how would you be if you were in my shoes?
seeing something that was not used frequently to be in much worse condition than something that i used everyday for the past 2 and a half years?
wear and tear is your answer.
i'm flabbergasted.

unhappy things happened at the same time and you are STILL expecting me to stay calm.
i'm human and i err.
i'm not perfect. never ever.
it is wrong to throw my mobile aside when i can't access to GPRS.
why is it so?
it is not a pretty sight to see me throwing stuffs?
it does not make the situation any better?
it is wrong to vent anger?
or because it has to do with someone very precious to you?

i'm not a tidy person and my things are sprawled all over.
BUT at least, i'm the kind of person who ask for permission to take others' things.
i'm the kind of person who take the effort to take good care of things, be it mine or others.
i'm the kind of person who bother to clean up after cooking or eating.
sparing the rod will only spoil your kids.

'hate it when people slams or throw shit'
you know what?
i hate it when my things are always being taken for granted.
i simply don't get it.
is it that hard to ask?
that is basic courtesy.
i'm really appreciative for things she has done for me, i really do.
but it does not mean she can take my stuffs without asking.
i'm shutting one eye because i know i shouldn't be ungrateful.
however, there is a limit to my benevolence.
i don't like it when people just presume it is ok to take things without asking.
it is NOT ok.
several times, i always ended up hunting for things that people have taken away without my permission.
be it at home or work.

why do i end up hunting?
because people don't ask!
in the 1st place, all these shit wouldn't happen if they asked.

bottling up my vexed feelings all these years is unhealthy.
one day, i might just end up confronting and hurting all those around me.