at a loss

it feels weird..
the long awaited day has passed..
i've met many people during this big event and it has been an eye-opener.
it leaves me with many many wonderful memories that will last me well for the life time..
it is something that i will never ever forget...
from all access to a meal..
seeing 신화 in a different light <333
연곤~ 난 정말 감동해요...
all the things u have done for me..
there is not a word i can use to express my deepest gratitude...
i feel like i'm lost or something..
i wonder why....
feeling so empty~

^o^

전진 recognises me =)
i bow & he bows back~
helen says he is staring at me :x
i guess he remembers me as the girl backstage~
this would be the 3rd time he acknowledges me~
that night after the concert, he was walking out with 앤디, he smiled & bowed at me~
gaga~~ i don't want to wash my right hand after i was introduced to him =P
he is really friendly & smiley <3
민진성 짱~

i saw the goodemg's photographer~
lol~ when i saw him, i will recall what bea said on the concert day~
he was taking pics of us with the banner.
bea: "他是在 aim rara 的！"
erm.. he was focusing his camera up & down and.. erm.. yeah~
after the pics were taken, i asked if we can preview and he smiled very shyly.
lol~ he is cute =D


연곤 called 상현 this morning saying that he misses me..
sigh.. i didn't even know he went back to kr yesterday~
feeling down..
i thought i could at least see him before the team fly back..
sigh.. he is always the one to fly home 1st..

stunned

dirty 혜성~~ ㅋㅋ
he wore back the same t shirt & cap that he wore to manna!
i wonder how he stand it..
bbq smell.. eeks~
동완 the dork~ he tried to drink from our water jug :x
l.u.g is.. ah~ they sat together ^^
so sweet~

ga~ feeling so lost~
연곤씨.. 당신는...
나는.. 할 말을 잃은..

cherry love

i'm shaking right now..
1.30am is a moment that i will never ever forget...
민우.. 사랑해~~
연곤.. 진짜 감동해요~

state of the art is now a state of shock for me..
overwhelmed..
no.. that is not the word to use..
i can't pick a word to describe my inner most feelings now.
it is more than a dream come true.. really....
the gift is something i did not ask for...
it really caught me off guard...

i feel like crying..
tears of gratitude and happiness...

...

i'm feeling so depressed after the dinner with them.
the promotion.. sigh.. oh.. never mind........
it is pointless crying over split milk.

mr andy.. he is such an interesting person ^^
i was so surprised that him said 'i love u' after i booked the cab.
lol~ i know it was a joke.
i felt sad when he was heading back to Seoul.
he is really a very very nice person.
very honoured to know he trusted us..

mr charles.. hmm.. there is something about him that makes me think..
he is cute.. i don't know..
i don't find him cute when i 1st met him a few days back :x
i'm such a weirdo~

mr jackie.. haha~ such a dork..
i'm so glad to know 윤호 is such a great person <3

mr shin.. u r truly a respected person....
i don't know how to express my heartfelt thanks to him..

박충재

생일 축하해 ^^
all the best for the concert in thailand <3

whoa

lotsa eye candies!

TVXQ - M Size 060731 MTV
준수 is the winner <3
창민 is violent! =.=

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Shinhwa - 僕らの心には太陽がある 060730 NHK Music Express

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원탁의 천사 MV ft 민우

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Super Junior - Love Dance Cut 060730 SBS X Man

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credits to oceansix, 3asian, myteuk

therapy

didn't feel like talking to anyone.
i'll only make others upset... :(

i'm a hermit today.
and i'm on a blogging spree..
i want a moment to myself.
to indulge in emptiness.

what is my best source of therapy?
entertaining myself with fan cams and vids.
saw a couple of tvxq fan cams and m's sometimes mv.

잘생긴 윤호


cute 준수 singing to Beautiful Life


pouty 재중..


i'm feeling this gloomy.. like this cap.


such a dork. this scene did make me laugh.


a bouquet of baby breathes <3>
flowers are not my fav but.. somehow, baby breathes always attracted me since young.
maybe they reminded me of little cotton candies.

i realised i miss m alot...
ever since that crappy forum incident, i didn't want to watch any shinhwa stuffs.
i just want a shinhwa-free moment..
it was by accident that i clicked on m's mv.
i didn't know it is his mv.
and it makes me realise.. i miss shinhwa..

tvxq are the boys and shinhwa are the men.

i love them all.

watching M - MV Sometimes

m's $5 project

my heart is thumping rapidly still. i thought i was in lala land when i read the news about my darling m's $5 project. rei msn-ed me at about 2.30am to inform me. it is a blessing i woke up at 3am XD i was shaking as i read the article rei and michelle co-posted in ShinHwa ChangJo. we REALLY did it. i'm slapping myself to make sure i'm NOT dreaming. we got lots of criticism when this project was posted on several forums. people slammed us with many sarcasm saying we are cheating people of their $ and other ridiculous reasons. NOW these are the same people to have their feet in their mouth.

i'm hyperventilating...............................
goodness.. i'm awake at ungodly hours :X
before i go, i must spazz at m's bump!!! perf on 051104 KM ShowTank.
awesome is not the word to describe.
daunting. formidable. magnificent.
what is going through his mind as he read about this
moneytoday

i love u, m <333
listening to m - bump!!!