reflection

it is really not worth to wait?
it is really true that he is heartless?
it is really a fact that he is so cold?
so determined to carry with his own life without me involved?
how could a person changed so fast?
was it a build-up tension that affect him so much?
why was i not sensitive enough to sense it?
so what if i did?
will it improve the situation?
it is really too late to do anything now.
why?
because he is no longer putting me in 1st place.
i guess i've not been in the 1st place.
someone else whom i respected is in his 1st place.
the decisions he made is partly based on this person.
it hurts like crazy to know how he has changed...
why must things turn out this way?
fate is only 8 yrs?
he is dumping everything aside without thinking of the many things we have been through...
what does it show?
clara is a failure.