my big day

i don't mean it as my wedding day.
of course, i wish that day will arrive one day.
a year older now... i hope it also means alot wiser.
earlier, the day didn't go quite well.
i seriously think the sentence 'how have u been?' is not lucky.
whenever i replied 'good', 'great' or 'wonderful', something unpleasant is bound to happen.
fancy squabbling with my best friend.
i was upset that why he didn't offer his help.
expectations? no.. not exactly.
i want my closest friends to show concern on their own accord.
i didn't want them to shower concern after i told them of my disappointments.
shouldn't it be purely out of good gesture & will?
it hurts more when the blow comes from someone very close to me.
everyone of us have good friends.
out of these good friends, there is 1 or 2 whom you will count on & turn to most.
when they didn't do what you would think they could, you'll start pondering.
questions will start appearing in your little head.
are new friends more important?
friendships that is almost a decade is nothing special?
those special moments that we have shared is incomparable?

what do you exactly hope & wish your best friends will do for you?
it is very simple for me.
a sweet sms to perk up the day.
a lunch / dinner date.
a pack of my fav snacks.
a comforting hug.
an ensuring smile.
a 'get well soon' msg when i'm sick.
being there for me when i'm the weakest.
these are not very demanding right?
it doesn't take a lot of effort to show love & care towards your closest friends.
most important of all, these little actions must come from within your genuine heart.

my 1st bday gift =)
a pretty set of jewellery.
very sweet <3


a slice of pretty cake for myself =)

i hope for things to take on a better path for me.
the last quarter of the year had been very tough on me.
many changes took place & they almost suffocated me.
these made me realise i'm not that strong as i thought i am.
i wish i will be more independent, firm, healthy, cheerful, confident to take on new challenges.
i must always believe in '明天会有新的剧情 会有人更爱我 会有不再委屈的命运'

a bear hug to my dear friend, andy <3
see this uberly cute sheep!

muacks to andy!
i love you, girl!

crazy first love

just finished watching 첫사랑 사수 궐기대회 on cable.
not the 1st time watching this movie.
the memories still seem so fresh...
do guys like Tae-il still exist?
going all the way to protect & fight for his love.
believing in the fact they will be living happily ever after.
life is so unpredictable.

a pretty set of mobile phone accessories.
i wonder where is it now.



when will my heart be shielded?

i hate watching old movies.
always cry after watching them.
wish i'm not an emotionally rich person.

=)

lol~
can't believe i picked such a card XD
have plenty of fun my dearest friends on this auspicious day! <3


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new year eve

heheee~ to all my beloved friends =)
enjoy your reunion dinner <3

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drained

feeling so tired =.=
intensive training is tough

happy birthday 에릭

missing out

things in life.
diving is one of them.
i learnt from andy that it is a very refreshing way to relax.
i knew this long ago from my classmate years back.
he is a pro diver.
i've always been fascinated then..
viewing the underwater world is an overwhelming experience.
phobia of the sea deter me from dipping.
hearing the exciting experience from the horse's mouth is cool.
it is something worth considering.
during my course, i learnt many new things from vincent.
traffic police is really an eye-opening job.
next is raymond, who saves cats.
he showed me a video of his 2 cats.
lovely, healthy cats with beautiful tails!
i've a strong affinity for cats since young.
love dogs, hamsters, rabbits, etc etc..
in a nutshell, love anything furry.


oh yes.. went for dessert at Häagen-Dazs.
melon & green tea.
hmm.. the melon ice cream tasted like banana :x
weird tasting.
green tea is still the best.

왜 마음이 실망해?
싫어..
불쾌하게 생각해..
그가 너무 새롱거리는 것이 불쾌해..
너무 너무 좋아하지 않아요..
개

새

끼

rose

hehee~ darling pauline gave this to me =P
a sweet pink rose with baby breathes <3
it comes with a teddy bear! =)

i wish the lighting is better, kinda too dark to see the pic clearly.
i'm not a huge flower lover person but still it feels great to get this from my close friend.
during my way back, i was thinking how would it be if i were to return home to find a bouquet of sunflowers for me.
touched? i will be, for sure.
i guess i still love the idea of receiving flowers.
well, the sender is definitely a crucial factor.
this year's valentines' is different.
nevertheless, i feel wonderful to spend it with my beloved friends <3
who says valentines' is only meant for lovers..

love is universal =)

happy v day

a very blessed & lovely valentines' day to all my beloved ones =)

i love u all <3

생일 축가해

to my dearest friend, blue szeto
happy birthday! <3
it's your special day to shine!
enjoy every bit of it, my dearest friend =)

state of shock

i can't believe this...
in a state of shock when i read about Jeong Da-Bin's death.
barely a month ago, U;Nee hanged herself..
depression was the main reason.
screw those malicious keyboard 'warriors'!
these f*ckers enjoy leaving vicious posts on fansites.
losers!
they can't express their anger in real life and choose to express evil words behind anonymity and from a safe distance.
they take pleasure in posting poisonous messages.
they believe that they are targeting at these people in the news, and not having the intention to cause personal harm.
what the f*ck are they thinking?!
they are ruining someone's precious life!
a word kills someone faster than a sword.
i'm feeling rather disturbed by these news =(
what is happening to all these people?

may Da-bin & U;Nee rest in peace.

best friends

best buddies


hug each other


always

i belong to me

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Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

beauty

is in the eye of the beholder.
is your vision clear enough?
heart, mind & soul..
all is crystal clear?

what do you want?

下场

终究结束了
电影下场了
有人问是否好看
因为爱情电影常常都是有好结局的
答案是 不好看
虽然打了很多广告
大家也很期待看这部电影
可是好可惜...
主角们都没把自己的角色演好
故事内容单调乏味
不够新鲜刺激
人们都喜欢看浪漫有趣的电影

liar

lies lies lies lies lies

nothing but lies

u r nothing but a big fat liar

why

is all these happening?
why a 2nd grade?

don't do this to me anymore.
please.

my heart is too fragile for all these.

sweets addict

i know i'm addicted to ferrero
one of my sources of comfort food <3
it makes me happy =D

ferrero

i love anything praline <3
blue szeto, i think we have all these but Maxi here.
maybe i can find it in Candy Empire.
that place has the biggest range of snacks & sweets <3

the Pingui site is so cute! =)

ah... i crave for nutella banana sandwiches..

윤호아~ 생일 축가해!

L'Estaminet

L'Estaminet, at Hillcrest Park, is an uberly cool place!
the food is succulent, especially the pizzas & portobello mushrooms!
must try! :9

check out this 21" parma ham pizza!


the toilet is interesting =)
you will be smarter after reading some facts. lol

oh.. we get to doodle on the table, too.
pure fun!

excellent ambience + delicious food + reasonable price = winner

最终话

终于太阳 还是升起
蒸发昨夜 为你落的泪滴
终于自己 能为自己
呼吸一口 不为你活的
呼吸 为自己而呼吸
为自己而心跳
为自己而快乐和伤心
噢噢 明天 会有新的剧情
会有人更爱我
会有不再委屈的命运
不再改变那些为你改变的格性
不再忍耐那些长久忍耐的心情
虽然心还疼痛地
回忆最初的场景

一开始你 就准备好
最后一集 你抽身的干净
成全了你也就是我 成全自己
最后最美的期许
那天你眼神泄漏孩子气
我偷偷下定给你幸福的决定
那开场白说得越真越壮丽
那最终话就是 遗憾的天地
不该继续叹息
再次深深 呼吸 为自己呼吸
为自己而心跳
为自己而快乐和伤心
明天 会有新的剧情
会有人更爱我
会有不再委屈的命运
不再改变那些为你改变的个性
不再忍耐那些长久忍耐的耳语
虽然心还疼痛地
感谢名单还有你

终于太阳 还是升起
蒸发昨夜 为你落的泪滴
终于自己 能为自己
呼吸一口 我不为你活的呼吸
最终话的最终场景
女孩眼中他的背影

找幸福给你

拥有喜欢的事让人变坚强
我的天堂就在你手里
承受所有的雨滴
像大海无边又无际
包容你是我温柔的使命
把让你伤心的人都忘记
我会治好你的心
天使不是谁都爱得起
我终于明白双手存在的意义
为了扞卫心爱的你
为了紧紧拥抱你
翻天覆地　找幸福给你
让人刻骨铭心什么都不怕

彩虹

期待着雨过天晴的彩虹..
我何时才会看到？

i love feb

why is it so?
various reasons =)
it is a month of pink.
it is a month of loving.
it is a month of giving.
it is a month of sharing.
it is my month!
lol~ i declared it as 'rara month' because it's my birthday month =P

feb has the least # of working days =)
feb is the lunar new year =)
feb is the month to pig out on sinful pineapple tarts, ferro rocher, candies, bak kuah without the guilt =)
feb is st valentine's day, where one is showered with plenty of love =)
feb is the time where i get lots of lovely birthday well-wishes =)
feb shows that i'm a year older. lol =)
i'm going to age well like the good ol' wine =)

i love feb.
always.

happy hippo

=P a sweet gift
last year, we got pauline's brother to buy these for us from U.K.
very very yummy!
we were a little sad to finish the hippos.
this is my fav after kinder bueno =)
terence found it in candy empire!
there is no hazelnut cream though..
nevertheless, i'm happy to have this *drool*
thank u, my dear matchbox ^^

r.i.p

i saw the taiwanese news & i was shocked to learn 许玮伦 died this evening.
:( she was in a car accident on fri.
life is really so short.
i don't really know who she is but i remembered her in some taiwanese variety show.
she is quite pretty.
红颜薄命

i feel unusually sad...
i've no idea who she is and it appears that she is quite a popular celebrity.
i feel pain in my heart...
this is really tragic..
this shouldn't have happened.
她有个美好的前途..

rest in peace, 许玮伦...

innovative

A print of a cup of Folgers coffee was placed on top of manhole covers in New York City , USA .
Holes on the print allows the steam to come out.
Wordings around the cup reads 'Hey, City That Never Sleeps. Wake up." from Folgers.


An innovative idea on a large billboard in Amsterdam , Netherlands .
It really makes you want that 'Heineken'.


This is a great advertisment campaign at Unicenter Shopping Mall in Buenos Aires , Argentina for Valentine's Day.
It magnifies the romantic ambience with a simple idea.


An ambient exercise to promote Eatalica burgers.
A 'Caution Wet Floor' board was placed near an Eatalica burger signboard.
The copy on the board reads 'Oogling at the burger may involuntarily cause drooling which may in turn lead to a wet floor.
Issued for your safety by the management of Eatalica restaurant'.
Eatalica is an American-Italian Food Joint in Chennai , India .


A giant mirror was built that allowed passersby to stop and look at themselves wearing Indivi clothes at a shopping mall in Tokyo , Japan


An advertisement for a job recruiting company in Berlin , Germany .
Depicting people working in the vending machines, ATMs, it delivers the message that 'Life is too short for the wrong job'.


This is an advertisement found in Vancouver during the National Non-Smoking Week.
The car was placed at the Vancouver Art Gallery and the message reads 'Death from car accidents: 370, Death from smoking-related causes: 6,027, Quit now before it kills you.'


Life size images were stuck on glass doors at shops, airports in South Africa for the advertisement of glass and window cleaner I.C.U.
The expression on the face is priceless.



This is a creative ad by Mini Cooper placed at the Zurich , Switzerland train station.
It gives the perception that the Mini Cooper has a large space.

p.i.s.s.ed

is the word to describle my feelings.
have been very tolerant till my patience snapped!
cannot take it anymore.
i'm finally using the 4 letter word again.
i thought i would not use this word anytime soon.
it has been a f*cked up day.
to those f*ckers:

PRICK
JERK
LIAR
DUMB ASS
2-FACED IDIOT
INSENSITIVE ASS

I HATE U

好累

好累
好累
好累

미워
진짜 미워

我开始很讨厌你
all these ain't meant to happen


i need a hug

malodorous flatus

also known as bad human gas.
or simply fart.

this Under-Ease will be useful.
i think it is amazing.
good for my buddies who enjoy farting into our faces :x
our air is free from their malodorous flatus!
=)

b.i.t.c.h

B.eautiful
I.ntelligent
T.olerant
C.harming
H.yper

N.othing
I.nsecure
C.oward
E.nervated

which one would u choose to be?
ultimately men marry the bitches.
i'm tired & sick to be known as 'oh! clara the nice girl.'
i'm no doormat!
time to be a b.i.t.c.h =)

coincidence

=) went for dinner with terence & to kinokuniya to grab some books.
lol~ we bumped into our dear friends, justin & colin.
can't believe we met in kino =P
it was unplanned for all of us. kekee!
think we can become bookworm club members? lol

a patient's mum sent me this email & i think it is really meaningful.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days and weeks passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.

It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

Epilogue:

There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

"Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."

to sydney

J just called & asked if i'm going to seoul for 동방신기's concert in feb.
i said no.
he sounded sad.
after that, he told me of a suggestion.
to go to sydney.
he wants me to consider to move to sydney.
absurd?
he is not giving up.

my retribution?

'Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.'

i need to sleep.
don't want to think anymore.

the burning crusade

=) WOW players must have been anticipating this.
alot of people lined up at suntec to get the official launch of this game.
been a long time since i last gamed warcraft.
the burning crusade is so cool with new alliance & horde race!
new spells, jewelcrafting..
my gaming urge is back~

save me

would u still be the one?

'They say you won't know how somethings are precious to you until you lost it.
And will appreciate more if you find it back.'

how true

Iris: I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of Chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little peices of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.
quote from The Holiday

how true.
when the night falls, no matter how hard i try to ignore my feelings, i'll eventually feel really low.
在夜深人静的时刻, 脑子里总是浮现很多的问题..
可是我常常都没有答案..
谁会来帮我找答案？

恶作剧

partying & boozing hard enough will make one forget troubles.
momentarily. that's good, though it is for awhile.
for new year, we went to Velvet Underground & drank ourselves silly.
Vodka Lime, Long Island Tea, Flaming Lamborghini & e 33 made us freaking high & almost killed us all.
the puking part is, of course, the most disgusting :x
well, paying to get drunk & puke.
at least, it made me gay for a few hours.

this weekend, after a North Indian dinner at Swissotel, we headed to Ministry of Sound to celebrate pauline's birthday.
this is rather amusing.
among the girls, i was the only one who got checked for ID.
guess i should take it as a compliment? =P
i was a party girl reborn at M.O.S.
it had been an awfully long time since i feel like a dancing queen.
u will get the moves at SMOOVE. =)
alot of guys surrounded us at the dance floor.
lucky they didn't do anything funny to us.
it was sardine-packed.
several times, i can feel that cutie's hands near me.
he was standing close behind me.
marlene kept asking me if he was touching me.
i would have smack him if he did!
most of the gang were drunk by the time we headed back to our seats.
they were boozing alot of Chivas.

i wish i was dead drunk so that i can forget my incurring pain.
at least for awhile.
i'm wondering if i was cursed.
whenever, someone asked me how i'm doing & i said everything is good.
a few days later, my life will be screwed.
something, that is going to rip my heart, is bound to occur.
it appears that he has more to speak to someone else.
they talk & sms each other often..
regarding each other's problems & sometimes i hear my name..
i can tell though he didn't say who.
my 6th sense is always right.
am i still the 1st one he tells of his ups & downs?
seriously, i don't know..
things were no longer the same ever since i succumbed to my vice.
do i regret for that vice?
yes, i do.
it almost took everything away from me.
i almost died.

yes, they are good friends. i know.
i've a few close guy friends, too.
i know platonic friendships exist because i've them.
why do i feel threatened?
partly because i don't know her & the gang had seen her before?
seen pics of them?
i'm not a jealous freak.
i'm just a pathetic, insecure loser who can't see the light.
3 months ago, the gang always tell me to move on & take the time to find someone new.
they said i'll have no problems hitching a new chap who might appreciate me more.
but no.. i tried & my little heart still refuses to open up.
he is irreplaceable.
josh disclosed to me that i must work hard & i'll still be the one.
that is what he told josh.
i'm working so hard but can he see?
the whole gang can but can he?
is he blinded by something else?
can he see actions speak louder than words?

one of my failures is not asking enough.
i always let him do what he desires.
i don't ask more. why?
because i'm not a sticky glue or miss ask-it-all.
he has his own life to lead.
he is mature enough to know what is right or wrong.
i don't believe in grilling every details out.
what is the point?
a relationship is built on trust.
when he told me he wants alternative sundays to himself, i said ok.
in my heart, i feel misery building up.
i'm only spending the weekends with him.
2 days out of 7 days.
is that too much?
in fact, it is little.
did i protest?
no, i didn't. i don't deserve the rights to.
all i want is more understanding & love.
are these too much?
look deep into your heart & ask yourself.
why are you punishing me so severely?
do i really deserve this much?
不要把我们之间的爱情剧变成恶作剧好吗?

why do i feel i'm going into my withdrawal state again?
i'm so numb.
i can't breathe.
why am i weeping?

what am i to you?

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wishlist 2007

ga~
why do i have such expensive taste? :x
hmm.. because they are made of better material?
because they are simply gorgeous?
because i'm a sucker for such goods~
my wishlist might get longer as the year proceeds XD

LV Bum Bag
furry little thing <3


LV Pochette Wallet
i love the little porter boy ^^


Dior Christal with 109 diamonds
bling bling watch =D
[ i wish it was not diamonds :x ]


Sony Ericsson Phone
so slim & sexy, like chocolate <3



iPod Nano
love the candy colors =)


time for bed.
stop dreaming, girl~

bad start

on my 1st working day.
things didn't exactly went well & i'm kinda pissed with some of my staffs.
not very responsible, considering the fact they have worked for more than 4-10 years.
these people know well enough on how to handle such cases, why pretend?
this is so crappy!
oh yes, another thing is $ IS NOT EVERYTHING.
不要用你的臭钱来压人!
the higher educated some are, the more nasty they become.
where have their morales disappear to?
anyway, what comes around goes around.
i take it with a stride, as a good training ground.
only the 3rd day into 2007 & i'm already upset..
2 more days to go before it is weekend..
must endure...

忍 忍 忍

我要加油！

happy 2007

my 1st post of 2007 =)
will be a short one, mostly about the movies i saw during the last week of dec 2006.

manipulating life & death through black note-books..
Death Note The Last Name. Light & L, who will win?
nevertheless, i think it is pretty amazing to have 2 death gods falling in love with a human.
overall, it was good but manga readers might be a little disappointed with the movie.
i still enjoyed it =)

Charlotte's Web is a sweet & touching story between 2 'can't-be-friends' creatures.
animal lovers will adore this...
& you will change your view on spiders =)

Curse of the Golden Flower tells a sad tale of family feud.
incest, hatred, jealousy, love.. all these sins lead to death...

heart-wrenching movie... people killing each other for the sake of Blood Diamond.
i'm disturbed after watching this.
innocent kids were brain-washed to become killing machines.
humans can become so evil.. ;(
despite of these, a fraction of the human race still believe in the good of all humans.
good will always triumph over evil.

would you like to spend a Night at the Museum? i would!
this movie is light-hearted & humorous!
i love the van scene!
i don't mind having a T-Rex as my pet dog. muahaha!
laughed so hard at this movie.
worth every penny!

the last movie that i truly enjoyed will be The Holiday.
the beautiful scenes, friendship & love blossoms...
what more can i ask for?
this film made me think alot... & to believe in love again =)
many a times, i've thought of running away to a remote land to live my life.
irrational thoughts i would say.
running away from troubles is what a coward will do.. isn't it?
but do i have the courage to face my problems?
i must find the strength..
through myself & my buddies who always believe in me.
i'm ever so thankful of my friends for helping & bearing with my nonsense..
you guys know who you are <3

"i have found almost everything ever written about love to be true.
Shakespeare said 'Journeys ends in lovers meeting.'
What an extraordinary thought." Iris (Kate Winslet)

un-touch-able

^ㅁ^ 깜짝~
그의 행위에 놀랐어.

"我猜你一定很 shocked."
he went on to select a song.
and it was M's song =D
i was pleasantly surprised to know terence burnt this song into his car cd.
hmmm... interesting...

anyway, i took out M's 1st album and i got another shock.
'Just One Night' was written by Rara J & Brian Kim.
muahahaa!
now then i realised it was written by someone who is also known as Rara.
i'm so slow! XD
i'm known affectionately to my dear friends as Rara, too. ㅋㅋ

우... i'm so glad to be home!
i need a good rest 1st ^^

it is going to be farewell to 2006 in 2 days!
i wonder how will this brand new year be awaiting for me..
i believe it gets better as it approaches =)

strive hard

for my future.
not only for myself.. but my family as well.
i'm going to make up for the loss over the past few years of sloughing.
i DESERVE more.
i'm going to determine my own future.
boost my confidence!
work with zesty people who will inspire myself <3

my xmas

of 2006 had been one of the best holiday seasons =)
this long wait is worthwhile...



a big hug & kiss to all my dear ones for their lovely xmas gifts.
i love them.


chilling out at ritz carlton is uberly cool!
the bathroom is a dream!
i almost dozed off in the bath tub XD
the view is magnificent!

we had too much food.
roast beef, honey baked ham, hotdog cocktail, baked chicken, snacks & lots of alcohol.
it was a crazy weekend!
binging & boozing! =D



mistletoe~ i have a thing for it.
a good way to get a smooch XD


oh~ did i say this bed is cosy?
i love the fluffy pillows!
the guys were jumping onto the bed.
we were petified that they might spoil the bed :x



these candies are so pretty!

our 'guess the christmas gift' session was hilarious!
i laughed so much till i had stitches on my sides.
can't never forget the break-dance from alan, pole dancing from alvin, dirty dancing from joshua!
poor terence had to go topless for 1 game session.
he must have been freezing :x
photo-taking time was a bunch of laughters, too!
PJs theme is cooler than we all thought.
some of them had to go down for smoke & they didn't change out of their PJs.
=P the other guests shot them weird looks.

alas.. sweet moments are short-lived..
have to head back home & to work later..
it is raining cats & dogs now..
so nice to sleep in.
suddenly, i wish i took leave..

nevertheless, this xmas has been special <3
the wonderful moments are etched forever in my heart~

christmas gifts

it is so sweet of pretty ann to send me a christmas card.
it truly touches my heart <3
every word inside warmed up my little heart.
my dear friend, it is really a blessing to know u ^^

cutie runting from rgs, who is attached to inpatient, gave me a very pretty christmas serviette.
i didn't expect her sweet gift ^^
oh~ she loves '궁' especially 신. ㅋㅋ

thoughtful meiyan gave me a charming glass ornament.
it is a glass painted mirror holder <3
gorgeous!

i was really delirious to get the above presents..
but i was kinda put off when the delivery man sent a bouquet of pink roses & white bear to my workplace earlier.
it was a sweet gift but... i'm not liking it.
i wonder what is the problem with me.
most girls will jump with joy to receive flowers but not me.
i'm never a flower girly person.
i love flowers but i don't fancy receive flowers.
such a weirdo :x
i think it is partly because i don't fancy nick.
no chemistry...
he has been nice but i don't feel a thing other than a friend.
i guess he thinks otherwise.
he is always trying to ask me out for dinner & to chill out.
i ought to give him a chance but i'm so screwed.
my life is already too complicated to allow another guy into my life.
why am i always attracting the wrong attention?
i'm such a jerk for putting the bouquet into a paper bag.
i didn't want to carry it in my hands :x
i think i'm going to dread seeing him in my clinic whenever he comes to give samples to my doctors.
*tugs hair*
i shall act nonchalant.
crap.
why am i such a jerk?!

enough of these.. i must be joyful!
it is the christmas weekend!
i can't wait to hang out with my buddies.
i've waited for this season for the longest time ever.
it really means alot to me...

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS & A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR AHEAD <3

what is marriage?

during dinner, my buddy was asking some of us:
"you have been married for years with no kids.
one day, you find that the marriage is monotonous.
you realised you find your colleague/new friend very attractive & special.
he/she is the special someone who adds spice to your boring life.
would you choose to salvage your dying marriage or have an affair?"

some of us said:
"go for marriage counseling" "go for the affair" "tell your partner of this special person you've met. ask him/her if he/she finds the marriage dying."

there is no wrong or right to their answers.
in my point of view, a marriage is sacred.
it is about finding the right person & being the right person.
i marry the person because i want to spend the rest of my life with him.
he is the one to build a warm family with me.
he is the one to father our kids.
we are there for each other in moments of ups & downs.
to substain a marriage, it takes more than just love & effort.
you need commitment, understanding, togetherness, unselfishness, communication.
it is crucial to love the person as who as he/she is & NOT how you want him/her to be.
we have to constanly remind ourselves how in the 1st place we fall in love with our partners.
it could be his silly faces to make you laugh, his lame jokes (you are the only one who finds it funny), his extra efforts to pick the yucky green peas or corn out of your dishes, his caring, sensitive side that is only revealed to you..
any daily routine will make life boring.
how could we take that as an excuse that the special someone you met recently will be the party of your new life?
it is wrong!
there is no dying love.
the only thing that is dying is the faith in yourself.
what happen to the wedding vow that both of you have recited?
“For it is my solemn vow that in the name of God, I, take you to be my lawfully wedded husband/wife, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to have and to hold from this day forward, to love and to cherish, until we are parted by death.”

there is always something new to discover about your husband/wife.
take the time out to explore & rediscover each other.
learn a new dance, song, hobby, sport together.
give each other breathing spaces, be thoughtful, sincere & sensitive to each other's needs.

there is no perfect person in this world but i'm willingly to love that one special imperfect man's imperfections.

quote of Barnett Brickner
"Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate."

i hope that my friends will meet their special someone & have blissful marriages.
have faith in yourselves. love will blossom.

Christina Aguerila - These Are The Special Times
Oh yeah, oh
In these moments, moments of our lives
All the world is ours
And this world is so right
You and I sharing this time together, oh
Sharing the same dream
As time goes by, we will find

These are the special times
Times we'll remember
These are the precious times
The tender times, we'll hold in our hearts forever
These are the sweetest times
These times together
And through it all one thing will always be true
The special times are the times I share with you

Mmm, oh yeah
With each moment, moment passing by
We'll make memories that will last our whole lives
As you and I travel through time together, oh yeah
Living this sweet dream
And every day we can say

These are the special times
Times we'll remember
These are the precious times
The tender times, we'll hold in our hearts forever
These are the sweetest times
These times together
And through it all one thing will always be true
The special times are the times I share with you

These tender moments
When heaven is so close
These are the moments that I know

These are the special times
Times we'll remember
These are the precious times, the tender times
We'll hold in our hearts forever
These are the sweetest times
These times together
And through it all one thing will always be true
Oh yeah, yeah

The special times are the times I share
The special times are the times we share
The special times are the times I share with you
Ooh yeah
(These are the special times)
Yeah, yeah
(Special times)
Yeah, ooh
(These are the special times)
Oh, oh
(These are the special times)

ice cream high

아이스크림!
진짜 맛있어.....
지금 아이스크림을 먹고 싶어한다!
ㅋㅋㅋ

these korean ice creams look so yummy!

mobile strap

=D i love the pink doggy mobile phone strap!
so pretty!
it reminded me of the cute puppies i saw over the weekend!
<333

dec is a joyous month!
i can't wait for the weekends =D

thank u, matchbox *^^*

feeling so sleepy~
time for bed soon...

feeling

if you think it is just a feeling, turn back & think again.
is it really that hard to reciprocate one's feelings?
how far is this going to carry on?
why does it make one feel so lost?
is it only an illusion?

all i need is you.
all i need is you to understand how i feel.
all i need is you to comprehend that i understand you.

all i need is love, understanding, faith, trust & more love.