matchbox

many happy returns of the day!
hope your day is filled with beautiful sunshine and happiness <333
love will fill the days and beyond =D

i got it

can't stop giggling to myself.
i can't believe i got the job at NUH!
=DDD
to be true, i didn't pin alot of hope on it.
i think i kind of blotch up the interview.
terence did tell me before that 70% of the interviewees who went for interview late in the afternoon / during evening will get the job.
i'm in that 70% of the interviewees ^^;;
i slept at around 4am just now & when my mobile rang, i didn't want to wake up.
suddenly it occurred to me that it could be from recruit express.
so i climbed out of my bed & bingo!
i can 'see' kat smiling so brightly to herself while she talked to me!
omg... i really got the job!!!!
a brand new start for me now.........
looking forward to it!!!
i know i am going to excel!
must have the confidence!

geez.. i'm seriously having mood swings..
last few weeks have been bad bad bad & today..
i'm suddenly delirious.. god...

thank u everyone for your support..
you guys are my special angels <3

bitch

truly i am one.
i'm a sinner & i'm no saint.
i'm sick & tired with many things in my pathetic life.
sometimes i wonder if all these are worthy.

i constantly remind myself i'm one lucky girl to have many friends who truly care for me.

i still remember a friend who once said i'm beautiful.
but he added on saying 'beauty & luck don't go well together'.
another friend told me 'you are one of the prettiest, sweetest & nicest girl i know but i find that you have not been lucky'.

i DO NOT find myself to be a beauty so i SHOULD have plenty of luck right?
but why i'm so down in my luck?
where is my luck?
must i buy alot of lucky 4 leaf-clovers to make things much better?
i've a$$ luck.. seriously..
with $, with strappy heel shoes, with work, with men.
wth is happening to me?!

i wanted to sleep as i'm dreadfully bushed.
but i can't...
am i suffering from insomnia?
or i'm just not willing to sleep?
fearing that i might sleep forever...

i hate how things are moving in swirls for me.

상처 입은 마음

<3

thank you to my dear girlfriends for your support..
pauline, jade, andy, mad, peach, linyan, ying~

colin & don, i understand the situation more from ur p.o.v
it means alot to me..

i just want things to progress well..
and...
i don't know..
i'm confusing myself as i don't want to jump out of this vicious cyle...


"what if there is a cute guy who drives a tuscani in your new workplace?" *^^*

"no, i want to sit in a honda city." *sob*

"......"

제발.. 힘이 들어 돌아와 줘

;(

really cannot take it anymore..
i don't want to cry anymore..
i ought to sleep now..
i have not been sleeping for the past 24hrs already..
turning into a zombie.
feeling so numb.
i'm pathetic?
talking to you on msn make me very happy.
at the same time.. depressed.

last, first kiss

aug 25th marks the end.
i've never ever shed so much tears in my life.
since 10pm to now.
i'm the worst looking goldfish on earth.
my eyes hurt.
my nose hurt.
my heart broken.
into many many million pieces.
best friends as we agree upon..
i know you didn't want to because you broke down when you were at my door.
but my passion for something else is killing you...
i'm really sorry i hurt you so much...
you have never been on the bottom of my list.
never...
both of us agree to be strong & carry on to pursue our goals...
how will things turn out for us?
let's wait & see again...
if we are meant to be.. we will be...
all the best to us..
i'll always love you for who you are.
and remember the sweet times forever.
thank you for being there for me..

i need alot of strength now..
please let me be strong.....
please..

왜.. 나는 눈물에 젖어요...?
왜?
너무 너무 너무 너무 너무 아파요..
견딜 수 없는 슬픔..
can i stop crying?

listening to vibe - 미워도 다시 한번

잘 지내고 있는 거겠죠
좀처럼 연락이 없네요
요즘 많이 바쁜가봐요
이미 다른사람 품에 안긴 너인데

나 미워도 다시 한번만
나 싫어도 다시 한번만
내 꿈속에 나타나줘요
이미 돌아올수 없을 만큼 떠난 너인데

I need U baby bye bye bye
가야만하니 why why why
그 모든 말은 lie lie lie
오늘도 눈물 나는게

슬퍼서 bye bye bye
가야만하니 why why why
의외로 참아내기가 힘이 들어 돌아와 줘
미워도 다시 한번만

어쩌면 많이 변했겠지
어쩔수가 없겠지
아직도 나를
용서할수 없겠지
내가 미쳤었나봐
너무 늦었나봐

다시는 너를
볼수가 없나봐
왜 자꾸만
멀어지는 건데
왜 자꾸만
잊혀지는 건데
이렇게 너무 쉽게
헤어졌다는 게
믿을수 없어
견딜수가 없어
비오는 명동을 걸었죠

그대 생각이
많이 나네요
이런 생각하면
바보 같지만
저기 먼곳에서
그대 다시 올것만 같아

I need U baby bye bye bye
가야만하니 why why why
그 모든 말은 lie lie lie
오늘도 눈물 나는게

슬퍼서 bye bye bye
가야만하니 why why why
의외로 참아내기가 힘이 들어 돌아와 줘
미워도 다시 한번만

하지만
그댈 잊어야만 하는 나

I miss U baby bye bye bye
영원히 그대 bye bye bye
가야만 하니 why why why
그모든 말은 lie lie lie

I miss U baby girl 너무 많이 보고싶어요
오 제발 이런 나를 용서해줘요
미워도 다시 한번만

날 그만 잊어요

listening to

거미-날 그만 잊어요

난 이제 조금씩 그댈 잊어가나봐요
가끔 웃기도 하는 걸 보니
조금 더 지나면 그댈 만나게 되도
반가울 것 같아요

난 그런 마음에 그대 내게 남아있는 사진을
한장씩 뒤적여 보다가
혹시나 그대는 또 나와 달라서
아직까지 혼자만 힘들어 할까봐

날 그만 잊어요
그댈 보낸 못난 내 기억에
행복하지 못하면 안돼요 그대까지

날 그만 잊어요
난 왜 이제 까맣게 잊은채
행복하게 잘 지낼 그대가 걱정되죠
아직도



아직도 모두 다 잊지 못한건가봐요
그대를 걱정하고 있는 걸 보니
날 버린 기억이(아픈 지난 기억이)
가슴에 남아서 혹시라도 나처럼 울기만 할까봐

날 그만 잊어요
(잊어줘요 날 이제는 그만 모두)
그댈 보낸 못난 내 기억에
행복하지 못하면 안돼요 그대까지

날 그만 잊어요
(잊어줘요 날 이제는 그만 모두)
난 왜 이제 까맣게 잊은채
행복하게 잘 지낼 그대가 걱정되죠
아직도


그긴 시간 힘이 든건 나만
내맘 그 어디에 그대 남아있어
마지막 한번만 날 위한 그대가
이제는 날 그만 떠나요

잊어줘요 날 이제는 그만 모두
그댈 못내 잊은채 힘들게 행복하져 보려는
날 위해서( 내가 행복할 수 있도록)

날 그만 떠나요
그대 이제 내 맘에 이렇게 남은채로
힘들게 하지 말고 떠나요

--------------------------

sigh...
pls. give me strength...

dumb bells

LOL~
은혁 exercises with pink dumb bells to 차근차근~
he looks hilarious!
he is wearing that scarf again.. :x

ooh.. 스윗소로우 is singing 3 songs live <3
they just got into the studio & the crew is adjusting the video cam.
이특 & 은혁 keep waving =P
와! 스윗소로우 is good!
one of the members reminded me of 규현~~

hmmm.. will 예성 be at the radio show at 2부?
hope so... birthday boy!

AHAHAHAH~~ i see 예성~
한경 & 규현 are here too =DDD
they prepare cake for 예성 <333
i've craving to eat cake just now....
i want some cake...

하하하~
i want to laugh really loudly!
they ask 한경 how to say 'Kiss' in mandarin.
'吻吻一下' is his answer & the boys repeat after him. LOL~
so funny~~ =DDD
come.. 吻吻我一下~~ =P

아~ 희철 call in~ i thought i hear wrongly..
his voice is different...
he pokes fun at 한경~ 하지마~~ =P

the 2 DJs just make heart signs before they leave <3

click on frame to watch
credits to prettysyuju

i finally did something to my cyworld~~~
pretty huh? lol~
oh my.. self-praising ^^;;;

종운~

^^ 생일 축하해!!!
사랑해~

힘들어...

feeling so tired...
nevertheless, must watch this~
can't concentrate though as i'm trying to fig out something..
*pulls hair*
:x

the opening song is twins =D
the 2 DJ mouth & dance to it~~ ㅋㅋ
today 려욱, 성민 & 신동 attend the radio show ^^
려욱 is cute.. he is playing with the mike =P
성민 kept yawning ^^;
i like 이특's white top~
아~ 은혁 is thoughtful~
he is always waving at the cam before he leaves.
he just reminded 이특 to wave bye~
kiss kiss good night~

click on frame to watch
credits to prettysyuju

혜성 같아

하하하~
이특이~ 혜성이 같아요~
왜요?
이특이 머리를 손으로 건드려고 좋아해요~ ^^;;;

우후.. 2부동안 동해와 시원이 왔어 ^^

i wish i can capped them live.
이틱's burberry top is wow-ie.
he is wearing his white von dutch cap again ^^
은혁 looks fatter in that black, grey long sleeved shirt <3
hmm.. don't fancy his scarf though~
as for 시원, his sky blue t shirt is nice, too.
동해 wears a red hooded Mickey Mouse top. kekeke~
이특 didn't style his hair today~
he looks like a little boy =P

they sang 2 cf songs ^^
one was by M(i can't rem the title)
the other song was 이준기's pomegranate cf song 미녀는 석류를 좋아해 =P
waitng for the vid to be uploaded now by prettysyuju ^^
은혁 is always cute in vids <3

click to watch

축하 축하!!!

기범~ 생일 축하해 ^^


이특, 은혁~ 슈퍼주니어의 KISS THE RADIO 첫방송 축하해 ^^

click on frame to watch
credits to prettysyuju

'8월 21일 월요일!
키스의 새로운 DJ!
'슈퍼주니어 이특 & 은혁'과 함께하는
키스 더 라디오 첫 방송이 펼쳐집니다!

이특 & 은혁씨가 라디오 DJ로 입성하는 첫날인만큼,
슈퍼주니어 멤버들이 우르르~ 몰려와
시끌벅적한 축하쇼를 계획하고 있습니다!
1,2부에 걸쳐 슈퍼주니어 전 멤버가 총출동하는 첫 시간!
'보이는 라디오'로 생생하게 진행되니까요,
요거 놓치시면 후회합니다~!!

한가지 더!
특집이 오늘 하루뿐이냐! 아수워하실 분들을 위해,
이번주 일주일간은 스페셜 방송으로 진행됩니다!
이번주 1부에서는..
버라~이어티한 축하사절단이 기다리고 있구요!
그리고 2부에서는..
슈퍼주니어 멤버들이 릴레이로 키스에 놀러올 예정입니다!

새로운 DJ '슈퍼주니어 이특&은혁'과 함께,
새롭게 펼쳐질 키스 더 라디오!
키스가족들의 들~끓는 성원과 관심&사랑&지지&환호!!
특이씨, 은혁씨와 더불어, 전 스텝이 기대하고 있겠습니다! *^^* '









click to see gif ^^
text & pic credits: kbs

오~~ (1부)신동,려욱,규현,기범(2부)동해,성민과 예성 왔어! ^^
I FINALLY SEE 예성 LIVE~ 호호호호호호~
진짜 재미있어~
귀여워~
라이프 노래했어~

오오오오오오오~ 11.25pm~
준수야~ 슈주에게 전화걸었어!!!
하하~ 준수가 은혁에게 놀려댔어 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

나~ 기분이 아주 좋겠다!!!!
오늘~ 슈주 day 예요 =D
슈주 CDs 를 배달했어!

TODAY IS SUCH A CHEERY DAY!

great escapee

i'm so tired after a long long day~
will blog about my day events when i wake up later~
so glad i'm back home!

i was about to shower when i thought i saw some crap in the toilet bowl.
i can't see it very clearly as i already took out my contacts.
went to get my glasses and holy sheesh~
what i saw shocked me :x

a CRAB!!!
in the toilet bowl! =.=
terence's dad brought some live crabs back and dumped them into a huge styrofoam box.
somehow, this great escapee climbed out and made its way into the toilet bowl! :x
terence tried to grab the string that was used to secure its claws but it swam further into the bowl.
i was reeking of BBQ smell & can't wait to shower~
so i ended up showering and constantly peering into the toilet bowl.
just in case it climbs out!
i didn't want to get pinched by it :x
at this moment, it is still in the bowl as we can't get it out.

in the morning, the 1st person to use the toilet will be horrified :x

eeks~~

lol~ somehow.. the crab reminded me of 혜성~
히히히히~

=D

on SBS Music Wave 060818
excellent <3
예성~~~ so smiley =DD
i miss 희철 & 동해..
enjoy these <3

Talk 1

Talk 2

난 남자다

U

미워도 다시 한번

박충재

생일 축하해 ^^
all the best for the concert in thailand <3

let death be me

why do u want to sleep it through?
u know how major this event is to me.
and i actually chose to give it up for u.
why are u still so distant?
why am i still crying?

am i doing the right thing to give up?
trying to make things work for us?
am i doing it right?
i don't know anymore.

how deep is ur love

i just farking hate how everything could be so screwed up.
sneering me at the same time.
internet connection sucks.
i can't talk to the person i want to.
i want a job badly.
i want to scream on top of my voice.
i feel like crying myself silly.
no.. in fact i did that already.
i farking look like a goldfish now. ㅠ.ㅠ

why must i hear 'how deep is your love' now?
u have wander away~
and i don't want u to show me anything.
let me dwell in my own world while u enjoy every moments in your life now.

allow me to live in my own fantasy world where i will be truly joyous.

<슈퍼주니어의 "속담아, 노~올자!">
8월 16일 함께 할 멤버 : 이특, 은혁, 성민, 강인, 규현
1st time 규현 is attending this radio show =)
♩♪ 인기가요 1 부 ♬
1. Summer time ... 포지션
2. 열정 ... 인순이
** 스타 뮤직 블로그 with 싸이 **
3. 연예인 ... 싸이
4. 새로운 사랑을 ... 보은

Super Junior 의 속담아 놀자
with Super Junior ( 이특, 은혁, 성민, 강인, 규현 )
5. Dancing Out ... Super Junior
6. Candy ... H.O.T

♩♪ 인기가요 2 부 ♬
1. Maybe I Love You ... 걸프렌즈
2. Goodbye ... 이브
3. Throw My Fist ... 신화

** 말꼬리를 잡아라!**
4. 노을 ... 부활
5. 내사랑 송이 ... 원우

song list credits kbs
these boys are so delirious~
and they want to go to a-nation?! lol~ silly dudes ^^;;
omg...... i can't believe what i hear at 11.35pm (KRN Time)
hahhaha! a male fan called in ^^
who turned out to be..... read on~~
based on my goldfish memory ^^;;

at about 11.35pm, a male called into the radio show.

male: hello! this hyunjoong. (in a girly voice)
suju: hello!
male: who is this?
suju: blah blah (the suju boys were introducing themselves)
male: HUH? who is this? blah blah~ (can't hear well because he is mumbling)
dj junhyung: which suju member do you like best?
male: who is this?
dj junhyung: park junhyung ^^**
male: ahh... i like... Kangin the best (giggling in the background)

by this time, i was already very amused by this male fan who likes suju.
he sounds so young..

kangin: ahh.. thank you (sounding alittle surprised and amused)
leeteuk: where are you from? are you a student?
male: who is this?
leeteuk: leeteuk.
male: ahh.. i'm a high school student. (giggling again)
leeteuk: jaejoong ah!
male: ah... AHAHAHAHA! ye, hello! jaejoong here.

i burst out laughing when i found out it was him who called in <333

suju: ah~ where are you now? japan?
dj junhyung: in japan? for 'Sky' promotion?
jaejoong: ah.. it is for a movie premiere in Osaka. it just ended.
dj junhyung: oh~ where are the rest of them?
jaejoong: pls wait (giggling again)

male: blah blah (alot of static from his mobile, he was introducing himself)
eunhyuk: ahh.. junsu ah~~~~
junsu: blah blah (i can't hear him but he was really hyper and happy =DD)
suju: (laughing away at his comments)
dj junhyung: who else is there?
junsu: pls wait~~~~ (laugh)

male: HAHAHAHA! (he laughed very loudly)
leeteuk: ah.. yunho ah?
male: ahh.. ahahaha~
leeteuk: yunho? (uncertainty in his voice)
male: NO~ it is CHANGMIN ah~ (=.=;;;;;; he is weird)
dj junhyung: it is fun in japan? what are you doing?
changmin: oh.. hello! hyung! just finished the movie. it had been fun in japan ^^
dj junhyung: who else is there?
changmin: pls. wait~~

male: ah.. hello~ (deep voice, sounded like he had a bad flu)
leeteuk: ah.. it must have been very tough on yunho.
dj junhyung: ah.. yunho ah? this is junhyung.
yunho: yes.. hello junhyung~ hyung~
dj junhyung: how are you? is everything ok? it must have been hard on you. a leader who has to take care of his younger ones. it must be tough on your body.
yunho: ah.. it is ok~ (i think he was trying to add on he is fine and doing well on his leader role. i don't know how he mentioned kangin's name)
kangin: yunho ah~ this is kangin~ (laugh)
yunho: oh.. kangin hyung (sounded rather surprised)
kangin: pls. take care~ where is yoochun?
yunho: ok. i will~ pls wait (sigh.. poor thing.. his voice is really choked up ;( )

yoochun: HELLO! (he sounded so hyper, like junsu)
dj junhyung: hello~ what are you doing now?
yoochun: oh~ we just finished watching a movie. just ended.
dj junhyung: do you know who am i? this is park junhyung.
yoochun: ah.. i know. junhyung~ hyung (he is like act coquettishly!!! ^^;;;;;;;)
dj junhyung: come to kbs radio soon all right?
yoochun: OK ^^ (i can almost pic his beaming face)

------------------- end ------------------
ha~ how pathetic my life is?
i'm happy over such little things~

T.T

i don't know why i'm feeling so sore.
i ought to be happy because the tickets are with me already.

am i doing the wrong things to make the distance even further?
why are u acting strange?

i hate myself even more.
i wish i know what is going on.

---------------------------------

thank u maddie <333
u cheered me up~
for saying i'm looking like 재중 ^^;
he is such a pretty boy~
i would LOVE to have his delicate features and charmistic smile =)
in fact, i think he is more girly than me =D

maddie says:
jaejoong look-a-like = rara

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
:x
★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
wah.... i'm jaejoong?

maddie says:
the hair the hair
maddie says:
covering one eye

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
i don't mind manz =P

maddie says:
ringo

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
ahahahaaa~ he is pretty!
★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
i want to look like him

maddie says:
rara kirei too

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
kirei?

maddie says:
pretty?

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
ooooh... *blush*

maddie says:
wat shampoo you use huh?

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
ahahah~ i use 'the face shop' intensive shampoo ^^;

maddie says:
oh...good ma?

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
it is good for colored hair ^^

maddie says:
ah so...looking for frizzy hair one

★으컁컁 `라라☆ u-know xiaholic 혁재 M 동해 정수 종운 성희 - ♬ beat - ★ SCREWED supernova says:
hmm.. i think they have hair straightening ones too =D

maddie says:
ah must go see see

히히

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO....
dear pyschomo!

생일 축하해!!!!!!
=DDD

i want to

drink the ice soda that they are having~
준수 looks so skinny >ㅁ<

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credits to lovecc
edited by `rara


sigh.. why is the graphics so lousy? :x
so blurry~
been a long time since i last made a gif.
i can't remember the old programme that i used.
the graphics was so clear.