bitch

truly i am one.
i'm a sinner & i'm no saint.
i'm sick & tired with many things in my pathetic life.
sometimes i wonder if all these are worthy.

i constantly remind myself i'm one lucky girl to have many friends who truly care for me.

i still remember a friend who once said i'm beautiful.
but he added on saying 'beauty & luck don't go well together'.
another friend told me 'you are one of the prettiest, sweetest & nicest girl i know but i find that you have not been lucky'.

i DO NOT find myself to be a beauty so i SHOULD have plenty of luck right?
but why i'm so down in my luck?
where is my luck?
must i buy alot of lucky 4 leaf-clovers to make things much better?
i've a$$ luck.. seriously..
with $, with strappy heel shoes, with work, with men.
wth is happening to me?!

i wanted to sleep as i'm dreadfully bushed.
but i can't...
am i suffering from insomnia?
or i'm just not willing to sleep?
fearing that i might sleep forever...

i hate how things are moving in swirls for me.

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