the departed

is a remake of 无间道.
throughout the whole movie, i kept hearing 'fuck'.
well, probably because it is a police-thief storyline.
such vulgarity is common.
begin & end a sentence with 'fuck'.
i wonder if it is a necessity?
or merely a form of expression to emphasize on the issue.
it is a blood & gore twisted movie.
there is no clear line between black & white. right & wrong.
in the end, all are dead.
blah.

i hate how i'm turning into a serious junkie.
i hate how i'm submitting to junks for comfort.
i hate how one can be nonchalant.
i hate how things are becoming.
i hate how i've to adapt to the changes.
i hate how i wanted to hate the world.
i hate how i hate assumptions.

i've made myself clear..
if u guys wish to continue to assume, i'm going to leave.
for good.
i really had enough of assumptions.
i'm going to void my heart of love.
not going to love another.
i do not want to go through this heart-wrenching cycle again.
u have made me change my views of love.
i used to think as long my guy loves me as much as i love him, it is a bliss.
i'm so naive. blame myself for loving evian.

sadly, this is not going to work on me anymore.
love & like have already turn into hate & dislike.
fairytales do not exist. just like santa claus.
just like unicorns.