those so called 'fans' will learn to appreciate 슈주 instead of hurting them. 29th Jul had been a terrible day for them all.. esp 강인.. he cried on his radio show ;( think i will cry, too.. when i watch it.. these boys put in so much efforts.. more than 6 years of training to get them to where they are now. these boys have a bright future but why are the people putting them down? is this what they should get when they become famous? ;(
some people are just plain dumb :x stop pretending WILL you? don't give false hopes to your members! you WILL lose ur credibility. stop lying before it is too late.
I came across your profile on Hi5, and wish to get to know you ...
My name is Philip, I'm a Chinese Singaporean, 1.78m, 70kg. I'm medium built and presentable looking. I'm 40yo, although many say I look like I'm in my early 30's. Currently working in the technical consulting line.
To be honest, I'm looking for a discreet relationship for companionship, fun and excitement. To fulfill each other's fantasies, and safe sex is of course important. I've not tried this before, but I think it will be fun. And no strings attached, keep it a secret relationship. And either party can call it quits at any time, and keep a cordial relationship.
Are you open to such a relationship ? would you like to meet up and see how things go ? no obligation of course..
Luv philip
f*cking hell. i didn't even say anything much on my profile *roll eyes* let alone, my profile states that 'I'm Committed' & it is decent with no sexual contents! & why would i want to fulfill my fantasies with him? if he has the guts, he would have display his picture to attract women. btw, doesn't he know everyone has a different gauge for 'presentable looking'? he must be out of his mind to leave me this msg =.= so what if he is 40yo~ HELLO! i only want 신화의 Yo!
by your comment "You like Super Junior! ^^*" when i told u about my involvement in a major project is more exciting than meeting my loves. i don't know what else to say when u said this. i can only smile~ =)
u've passed the stage like u said. i feel really relived that we didn't fight like cats & dogs. i thought we would. instead it was amiable~ that is a good sign right? tell me it is..
this project is gonna be a major experience & i'm actually more enthusiastic about the whole process THAN seeing my loves. weird? yes, i think i'm weird. aquarians are eccentric anyway, always~
wtf is sm doing to them?! these boys are sick & wtf are they still going to japan yesterday? promotions still?! wtf! read here
my heart broke into a million pieces seeing these ;( i fully understand 준수's black face already.. mistaken him already...... ;( 윤호.. 어떻해.. 빨리 건강을 회복해.. i feel so sorry for them. all the crappy things happening to them...
060722 at Kimpo Airport credits on pics.
they lost their sparkles in their eyes
a tribute by sharest at Xiahsoul i see 형준 in the vid.. but somehow.. i don't know. i'm one poor, confused soul.. the boys don't look happy anymore.. 준수.. 미안해..
and banging your keyboard will not make ur internet connection ANY FASTER! wake up, dude! people always say the youngest kid is the spoilt brat & u lived up to your name!
i wish i were not here to witness ur childish act. get ur own broadband~ why steal from me? u know my connection is affected by u, too! maplestorydude
on 15th Jul, it was for KBS vid on TVXQ, SJ concert. just now, ying ying sms-ed me that she saw me on the BIG screen of Shinhwa's Busan concert. guess when was Shinhwa's concert? Dosirak had an online live streaming on the 15th, too! holy moley! 这么巧啊！ 天啊！
*fainting mode* i'm famous... korean fans probably could have realised they saw me on TV a while ago T.T what if 東方神起, 슈주 or.. 형준 saw it... i know i'm thinking too much.. but what if..
OMG~ i want to dig a hole & hide~~~~~ they could be thinking 'why is this girl everywhere?!' oh sheesh~ i really can't believe it! i had many 5 mins of fame when Shinhwa came for Euphoria 2004, on local newspapers, TV news & Krn news. then i ended up on their DVD i become a mini celebrity because of my loves~ is it a good thing? really no idea...
let me side-track: BoA's new single 'Key of Heart' is nice ^^
i learnt something rather embarrassing again. went for dinner with helen, beatrice & jade at seoul garden as helen will be leaving for brisbane tomorrow. after our dinner, vivian came to meet us. she wanted to go for dessert but we were too full. so we accompanied her to Mos Burger instead. we ended up talking about the boys again. i flushed fire engine red when helen & beatrice told me about 형준. it appeared that in our pic, we are couple-ly. we'll make a cute couple o.O hmmm.. hmmm... oh well... apparently, he turned back to look at me after the a to z team got onto the travelator to their gate. they saw him talking to his team mates. but of course i didn't notice that as i was in a frenzy! i was covering my face & giggling insanely then :x
[impersonate from helen & beatrice] 형준: ah~ just now, that girl is very pretty but she is lost form. she is so hyper after we took pic. a to z team: *nod heads*
holy sheesh! upon hearing that, i turned crismon! it was pure make believe but..... come to think of it.. we make a pair? =P lost form 형준 + lost form rara the girls used to call 형준 as my lost form dancer till they finally see him at the airport. i used to bug them & insist he is quite adorable. muahahahaa! now they do agree with me that he is charming ^^;
sh*t! 那天我真是太没有形像了! 我的脸要往哪里搁呀！ 好丢脸啊！
listening to 東方神起 - Rising Sun Remix 2006 1st Live Concert in Seoul
ahh..... craze mode now i want to kick myself for ignoring their buses during Feb in Krn for 東方神起 concert :x i still rem that day when all of us came out of our hotel and i saw their buses went by. our hotel was just a stone throw away from SM building~ why didn't i take pics of their buses? because at that time, i had been trying to tell myself NOT to like them =.= fghgjkfghjk! look at what is happening to me now >ㅁ< frapping nuts over 은혁~ high over 이특, 시원, 려욱, 기범, 동해, 한경... *smack self*
click on frame to view all clips ^^ credits to SM MV - U
just got home after spending a day with helen. she is still stuck in SG as she couldn't get a flight back. :( i had a wonderful time talking to her, considering both of us are around the same age group. mutual understanding when we talked about our troubles. i feel more sane after that. thank u, helen <3
bea informed us to watch Superband as this group Soul is singing 東方神起's Rising Sun & 바보, Mandarin ver. T.T we got back at the Supreme Hotel at around 7.30pm & guess what? NO CH U on the TV~ :x damnit! anyway, i heard Soul screwed up :x
so i ended up watching SJ's Full House ep 7 & 8 on helen's laptop. we laughed so hard at them =P they were so dorky! esp 혁재, 동해, 한경 & 희철! they were learning english! hehhehhehe~ 혁재 is the highlight of these 2 ep =P 'Nice Weather' 'You're so gorgeous!' 'Obey Me' muahahahaha! 혁재 kept saying he wants to go to the mountain. =P 'I'm long!' wtf! he got it mixed up for height, it should be tall. hello~~ 이혁재~ i know u are long. muahahhhahhahaa!
helen confirmed my imagination during the concert. i'm not that type of person who will insist 'who & who' are staring at me during the concert. there were so many fans, these 가수 could be just looking randomly~ anyhow, she told me that she saw 혁재 looking over at me for several times, be it when all the SJ on stage introducing themselves or performing. he would be stealing glances :x he saw my '은혁'clip ^^ omg.. well.. at times, my eyes wander to 이특 =P nevertheless, i'm really honoured after helen confirmed that <3 people always say others see better than urself.
next is 형준! i went into a super duper spazzy mode after i took pic with him. i just sat down next to helen & hugged her. after so many years since 신화 times... finally~ at the Krn concert in Feb, when i saw him walking out of the room, i couldn't shout his name because i FORGOT his name! i got so nervous that i forgot his name. wtf =.= so i told myself i'm going to freaking rem his name & talk to him next time. when bea asked me to ask him for a pic 1st time round, i said 'no, what if he rejected me?' bea 'no, he will not! trust me~ just go.' me 'ahh... cannot~' bea 'yes, go! u r pretty & he will be happy to take pic with u' me 'erm.. ah... cannot T.T i'm very scared!' i held onto helen and told her i must go to the toilet~ went in and took many deep breathes. 'i can do it! i can do it!' however, when i got out & saw the a to z team, i got all clammy again! T.T no idea why i was so jittery!!!! finally, after they went into the gents, i told myself to be brave. i don't want to regret that i miss this last chance. they were approaching the gates! really on 7th heavens when he agreed! <3333333333333333333333333333 oh god.. he said thank you after that.. his voice.. *spazzy* helen told me he turned back to look at me after all of them got onto the travelator. i was too spazzy to notice that.. but i feel euphoric upon hearing that~
helen confirmed 2 of my most zingy moments with 혁재 & 형준. i'm going to have sweet dreams <3
12th to 15th of Jul mark one of the biggest highlights of my life. i'll remember it till my hair turns white~ my teeth drops off~
김재중, 정윤호, 김준수, 이혁재, 이특, 강인, 한경, 신형준~
12th Jul - Arrival found 東方神起 and walked with them. no chance of talking to 준수, he looked tired. he had his shades on. he didn't smile.. :( whereas, 유천 smiled mega-watts! beatrice talked to him! ^^ jade wanted to talk to 윤호 but decided not to. he had ankle guard on his right foot. we took the monorail together but in different cabins, only separated by the glass panel. 윤호, 재중 & 준수 sat down whereas 창민 & 유천 stood on the right. i almost died when 준수 turned back to look, right at me. i counted.. 5 secs. he kept a straight face. awhile later, 재중 turned to look at us, too. *spazz* krn fans were filming them all the while & their manager warned them. it was cool arriving with the boys at the airport <333 2 Estimas picked the boys from the airport to Regent. 윤호, 재중 & 준수 were in one car. they sat together again. my 3 favs <333 준수 had his left arm over the backseat all the time. we saw 윤호 sitting up & kidding with 재중. cute! =P
13th Jul - Bonus wanted to go to the stadium to check out venue. suddenly, Helen's sharp eyes spoted SJ! AT the roadside~ lol. only 시원, 예성, 신동, 이툭 & 성민 ^^ we supposed it was meant for an MV or photobook~ they were filming at an old prison near Times Square. we just stood some distance & watch. it was really cool =P after awhile later, they headed towards our direction! tina brought some dried mangoes & we gave them to SJ~ omg omg omg~ the spazzy part came! 이특 started to share with the members & crew! he turned around & passed beatrice one. he is such a DOLL! omg.. 시원 spoke to us in Malay. T.T anyway, we corrected him. he HAS to know where we are from. really cool of him to talk to us. <3 as SJ went on to the monorail for more photoshoot, we decided to get them presents! jade & i were still talking, we must not like SJ back months ago. i shall just stick to 혁재.. in the end... lol~ the girls got me & jade to write the messages for them in Krn. i forgot how to write 'Philipines'! and we called up Ying to help us <3 in the evening, Helen & I bumped into these 5 chaps again as we headed back to Regent. we called the girls down immediately! the malaysian fans were shouting '동방 동방' T.T they ought to get their facts right! calling the wrong names for the group. holy sheesh :x awhile later, all 13 members came out of the hotel & we managed to pass our gifts to them. we gave them mangoes again =D 시원(in red polo tee & khaki bermudas) turned to me and jade & waved. omg.. he recognised us! 혁재(in white top & jeans) looked really nice in his nerdy glasses. finally see him in real... *drools* the boys went to our Marriot hotel's Krn restaurant for dinner at 7pm++. around 11pm, they came back to the Regent again. beatrice & i decided to go up to our hotel room. all the boys got into the lift opposite us. one of kingdom's staffs got into the same left with us. as the lift opened at level 7, the last member to walked out was 동해. he cocked his head & looked at us as both of looked out. <333 awwww.. he smiled slightly! lol~ he wore nerdy glasses too~ we were really lucky to bump in SJ~ <333
14th Jul - Concert super duper spazzy. to be posted later. i talked to my fav dancer, 신형준 & dear 윤호 <333
edit: blast of the day <333 not the damn sound system though. 준수's cabin was lopsided as it didn't land properly on the stand. the crew rushed out to fix it. T.T i was cursing and swearing under my breath. it was lucky the cabin didn't topple over. it was so dangerous! poor 준수 must have been scared out of his wits in there :x the opening song 'tonight' was a nightmare. we could see that on the boys' faces. can't rem which song that 재중 forgot that it was his part to sing. 창민 turned to look at 재중 =P eye sex with SM boys. 재중 with my hairband. 준수, 혁재, 강인, 기범, 한경's eye contacts. bea & i have late spazzy moments. i started to giggle to myself & it gradually got louder as i thought of the hairband in the maxi cab. holy sheesh! my handmade hairband landed in 재중's hands!!!!! smarty nicky to pass it to him <3333333 hehhee~ aiqing texted me immediately on the hairband =P we were so spazzy! 'show me your love' is the best perf of the night! when sj came out for their perf, bm girls were rushing to put on the clips beatrice made <333 they were staring at us & they smiled. they recognised us~~~~ their Mango girls. lol~ 려욱 was really sweet when he heard his name. he smiled & bowed. omg...... lol~ 혁재 was looking at bea & me & he waved. <333333 he was so smiley!!!!! i think he saw my junsu tee & his '은혁' clip. lol~ 시원's bottle of water & 희철's paper fan created commotions as they gave it to the crowd in my area :x the BM girls had a hard time swopping back to hairbands when 東方神起 appeared on stage again. and we realised the sj boys were still standing at the side of the stage ^^; 준수 and 혁재 waved to each other <333 during their 'show me your love' perf, both of them hugged <333 sj's performances were excellent. alot of eye contacts with fans =D bea & i realised the members will stare at us because we wore their names on our heads. whenever 혁재 looked over at me, i will tiptoe.. so that he can see my 준수 tee... =P it is a 재수 thingy for me. i really like how sj members focus & smile at their fans <3333333333 so in love with 혁재 now. only bea & i will understand. =))
rushed down to the airport when concert ended. i saw my fav dancer, 형준 playing with a toy car & i daren't talk to him. we checked in together with the boys and crew. 준수 was still sulky :x he had his shades on & listening to his nano. 재중 turned back to talk to the crew after he cleared at the customs. jade & i thought he was telling them to see them later. 윤호 looked at both of us for several moments while he was waiting for the immgration officer to clear his passport. 재중 seemed really happy~ we lost the boys as it took a really long time for the officers to clear the crew's passport. we were walking around trying to find them. the dancers were walking infront of us. i almost chicken out to take pic with hyungjun. i think i'm psychic. i was telling beatrice that the dancers might go to the washroom. and they did! a few of them almost went into the ladies ^^; once they came out, i jumped at my chance & asked 형준. i was so nervous! i'm so scared that he will reject taking pic with me. he is so soft-spoken. gagagagagaggaagaga <3333333333 omg~ the rest of the a to z team were whispering among themselves behind the both of us. 형준 put his hand over my left shoulder and i told the girls i didn't want to shower :x a big kiss to beatrice for helping me take pic <333 i was grinning like an idiot after that. though we saw the dancers, we couldn't find the boys. so beatrice decided to find out more. she ran, with me & nicky following suit. suddenly, beatrice stopped dead in her tracks & turned back to us & mouthed it was them. i almost didn't stop in time. we almost bumped INTO THE BOYS. we hid behind the pillars. when they turned into our path, beatrice & nicky went over to give the present to 재중. he took it <333 i hopped infront of 윤호 and told him 'presents for u.' he went 'ah..', nodded and smiled. the moment he took tina's mangoes, i just stood there dumbfounded. i didn't know what else to say. there was a herbal smell on 윤호. it must be the medicine on his right foot. shortly after, they were all waiting at the boarding area. 윤호, 창민 & 준수 sat together. 창민 was playing with 준수's ear-piece. 재중 & 유천 sat opposite of each other. suddenly, 창민 looked up! i will never forget 창민's look when he caught helen filming... :x it was very scary......... 유천 shook his fingers a 'no no' sign at helen. 윤호 & 재중looked up but they didn't look angry. 준수 cocked up his head to look, looked down & continued meddling with his black nano. i doubt they saw the berries as we were hiding. it took them awhile before they can board their flight. the boys went to the economy class cabin. around 5 mins later, i saw 재중 walked out. followed by 유천, 준수, 창민 & 윤호. they were going to business class instead. i haven't quite get over the fact, i finally talked to 형준 & 윤호. in fact, i was more nervous talking to 형준 than 윤호.. my heart thumped really fast & my hands were cold & clammy.
15th Jul - Despair super duper upset. to be posted later.
edit: damn the people at immigration! u people will get ur karma for doing stupid things to us. all of u were fucking idiots for trying to screw us up. u people obviously wanted $.. damn u~ fucking leechers! a big thank u to tina, connie, vivian, mr roslan & our embassies <333 without ur help, we don't know if we can get back safely. we took the earliest flight as we don't want to be there ANY LONGER!
it had been a wonderful experience despite it all. i had the highest moments of my life & i hit the pits in a difference of only 3hrs. hicky & berries will never forget these moments together.. i enjoyed it all because i'm there with hicky, berries, aiqing, karen, chu, belinda, hwenny, jaem, linyan & friends <333
made it to TV again. previously for Shinhwa, now it is for them.. on KBS
i want to go to The Dime Store! the things are cheap! hahha! the boys are so impressed by the magician =D especially 준수! he is so in awe! keep a lookout for his wide-opened mouth at 13.43min =P omg~ the boys are so spazzy at the 17.30. what's up with that tongue action :x 바보야!
i'm on a vid frenzy. not in very spazzy mood though. seeing 윤호 makes me grieve. he is still going back for vaccines to keep himself going. it is THAT serious. pls. get well soon. ur health is more precious than anything else. <3 very fond reminiscence of this concert though it hurts to recall a very sick 윤호 performing for us ;(
another summer song~ i like it but there are too many people on screen. it is so confusing. their faces get blurry when the camera focus on all of them. oㅁo;; 기범 gets so LITTLE airtime! even newbie 규현 gets upclose shots.. :x lol~ they ought to pair 준수 & 은혁 together! instead of 이특 & 예성 couple =P almost can't recognise The Trax. they discard their grunge look~ i think Rose disappeared? o.O
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credits to withyoonho edited by `rara
geez.. i slept at 5am this morning time to go to bed again with sun rays beaming at me =D
ah........... helen & nicky arriving in SG tonight <3
their 7th japan single pv just aired around an hr ago on MUSIC ON! TV~
u see the caps here 1st <3 it's SUMMER TIME! =D i can't stop giggling at their dance ^ㅁ^ apparently, someone's outfit is so.. erm.. off wrong color combination!
윤호 always looked tormented :x 준수 the angel <3 재중 the sex god =P 유천 & his red car again oㅁo; 창민 the birdnest hair do =.=
get the single! releasing on 16th aug =)
wanna watch? <3
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credits to bestiz & lovegratia edited by `rara
lyrics
★재중★ 晴れわたる空高 맑게 개인 하늘 높이 どこまでも手を伸ばし 어디까지나 손을 뻗고 光 體中に浴びて 빛을 몸속까지 쬐어 騷ぎ出す胸の鼓動 두근대기 시작하는 가슴의 고동 忘れられない 夏にしよう 잊을 수 없는 여름이 되게 하자 君がここにいるから 네가 여기에 있으니까
★유천★ 脫ぎ捨ててゆく 傷も痛みも 벗어가고 있어, 상처도 아픔도 自由だけだきしめて 明日に向かうよ 자유만을 안고 내일을 향할 거야
★동방신기★ 太陽が今僕らの上で 태양이 지금 우리들 위에 耀き續けるから 계속 빛나고 있으니까
★창민★ この夏は永遠に終わらない Believe me 이 여름은 영원히 끝나지 않아 Believe me
★동방신기★ 好きな感じで樂しめばいい 좋아하는 느낌으로 즐겨도 좋아 くり返す Everything's alright 반복되는 Everything's alright
★준수★ 何もかも熱い世界に屆け 어떤 것도 뜨거운 세상에 닿을 거야
★창민★ 南風吹く場所で 見つめる道の先は 남풍이 부는 곳에서 보고있는 길의 앞은 搖れる蜃氣樓のかなた 흔들리는 신기루의 저편
★윤호★ 夢は僕らに何か 꿈은 우리들에게 무언가를 傳えて前に進むため 전해주기 전에 나아가기 위한 心强くさせるよ 마음을 강하게 해줘
★유천★ 一度しかない 今日という日に 한 번밖에 없는 오늘이라는 날에 思い切りぶつかれば 扉は開くよ 마음껏 부딪히면 문은 열릴 거야
★동방신기★ 見上げれば空 見下ろせば海 우러러보면 하늘 굽어보면 바다 そこに僕らは生きて< 그곳에서 우리들은 살아가
★창민★ この夏にめぐり合えた奇跡 Believe you 이 여름에 다시 만난 기적 Believe you
with one of my closest pal, don, on 준수 ^ㅁ^ i ended up showing him pics of 준수 & made him guess his age. heheh.. don is so smart! lol~ with just one look & he hit the jackpot! soon, we were debating if 준수 is a natural wavy or straight hair boy ^^;
we were talking about the taiwan drama '恶魔在身边' & how cute both the leads are. no idea how we ended up talking about me being a pedo :x
ah.. good news that 윤호 has discharged from hospital <3 the poor kid needs plenty of rest~
thinking of watching the germany vs italy match. starting in about 15mins' time. but my throat pain is driving me bonkers. think i'm suffering from insomnia :x ever since, i got back from Japan.. i've been sleeping at around 3am. crap~ this is so unhealthy. i guess that is the reason why i'm not recovering from my cough. almost a week since i gotten this cough :(
EDIT my heart sank upon when terence called me this morning. host country, Germany, lost ;((( i'm banking in on them winning...
